I'm Hooked.

T- 7 DAYS

     So a few days ago I finally got my hooks and it's so surreal because eight months ago I was reading about patients 5 days away from surgery getting their hooks and it makes me so happy because it's right there, I can almost touch it I just have to wait it out just a little longer. Actually, The only thing really standing between me and this surgery isn't really time anymore; it's the fever I've been suffering on and off for the past two days. I feel dizzy, tired, out of breath , and intermittently experiencing chills only to wake up from a shortlived nap drenched in sweat; Which is terrifying all on its own without adding in the fact that I ABSOLUTELY CANNOT be sick  on the day of the surgery and I've been cut off from all medication starting today as per request of the doctor; but even as I type away I feel kinda better and the congestion-migraines are mostly gone I think or at least that's what it feels like splayed on my oh-so-comfortable bed but then I get up (maybe too fast) and then WOAH BAM BOOM pain hits me and knocks me almost literally off my feet. Anyways the point is, there is just mild alarm and I'm very VERY optomistic that this bug will pass ; I'll get my surgery on time and everything will be OKAY.

     On another note, there are 3 more days of school left and for some reason, despite the fact that I do almost nothing everyday, these days are the hardest. Same as being so close to the surgery date, I can almost taste the freedom of summer; the refreshing feeling of waking up far long after the sun had; and not having to worry about confronting other people or cramming for that assignment that's due first period, five minutes before the bell rings, or the fantastic feeling you get when you walk out in that hot beating sun and step into crystal clear blue water, orrrrr maybe like when your stomach hurts so much and you can't breathe; but not because you're terrified of presenting, but because you've been rolling on the floor laughing so hard and enjoying some stress free time with your friends  . HAHAHAHA. Just thinking about that special feeling makes me giddy.  And this summer is all the more exciting because it's gonna be action packed~
Anywhoozits, below is a picture of my hooks and  for some reason they remind  me vaguely of pinhead. They took all of thirty minutes to put on and the whole procedure was virtually painless save for the occasional pressure from a tool that resembled pair of really big pliers.  (un)Fortunately I don't have to visit the orthodontist until 3 weeks after my second surgery so I won't get to experience the oh so invigorating feeling of getting a falcon punch to the face- oh no- instead, next week, I get to have my jaw broken and then drilled back together with the help of titanium screws and plates; AND I'M SO FREAKING EXCITED~


alright back to studying for finals- and by that I mean binge watching Grey's Anatomy all night long.